Today is 11:!1 2010. Another large portal day, another window/wave of opportunity. Ho-hum. Another tiny insignificance of complacency making a futile attempt to surf the intensity. I woke, at 1:11 this morning, grinning from ear to ear. NOT the norm of late, and certainly a welcome relief. And yet, underneath the "oh another portal day" feeling is the panic, the anxiety of "yet another portal" - felt in the viscera, in the body, a reaction to great transformation felt as "Make it stop - just for a second, let me breathe - in the midst of DON'T STOP!!!! PUSH ME FORWARD!" And it is. We are. The momentum is ever-building, to what we cannot yet perceive and some of us can barely discern on the inner horizon.
The culling, sorting, purging dance that is upon us feels like a "last dance" between what truly 'feels good' in a way that honors forward movement (if there is such a thing) and what 'feels good' in a way that honors aspects of self currently in the death process. The dying aspects of self, those whose energies are committed to controlling, will grab onto anything, including old, outworn and long unused addictive patterns, to 'feel good'. Internal palliative care that is sad, tired, and 'works' for only moments before sliding away into the abyss that has opened for it. Choose to let it go. The abyss warmly receives the old into rest and a deep, deep knowingness that is the cusp of the Great Remembering. The controller curling up in the arms of rest, with the deep contented sigh of a child, whose long day of play is finally and now wearily at an end.
I choose the leaping, twirling, dance of my companion scottish terrier, of my inner and 'outer' dolphin friends, as delight spins through the body a reality birthing of joy. New joy, long-remembered joy. The co-creative joy that simply pours through us all, when we finally, finally stop trying to let go and get on with it. ;)
I feel, in every breath, this portal. Leap with us! Choose the joy! And leave behind all that is burdensome. All that is not this intensity of lightness, of truth and of... what the mind perceives as 'unknown'. How will it 'work'? The mind cannot comprehend, and thus, the old is revealed, in its last-ditch heroic efforts to 'make sense of' to codify and, sadly enough, to thus control.
What deepens is the feeling, the embodiment, of complete fluidity. The 'place' without fixed position. No boxes, no labels, of very few directions, and usually none at all. The place without a place, the visceral experience of unity in flow. So long remembered, yet yearned for through an eternity of 'other' experiences in creation.
The yearning inward, so strong, so claiming, owning, so very very present. Spread across worlds, and multiple various dimensions, the Goddess yearns within us - for union with Herself.
May this day of doorway, portal, and transformation, embrace and support us all!
Numerology note: 111 is a 'master number' indicating energy flow - amplification of the energy you are in with an increase in intensity.
11:11 is an observable phenomena that heralds the new cycle. It indicates a new phase of development, dimension or frequency of experience – a portal or doorway to pass through. ~
May Every Blessing Find you!
Mary
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