Boxes and Batons

Every paradigm, reality construct or other 'physical adventure' is actually a sort of box. The view from outside any box is, quite simply, extraordinary, awe-inspiring, gob-smacking... you get the point. Consider the film Contact, with Jodie Foster. The main character's inability to express the cosmic viewing point(s). The old paradigm, the 'powers that were' etc. are literally contained within a boxlike reality structure. Every spiritual tradition contains truth and a 'manual' for exiting the box... or peacefully existing within it until such time as an exit strategy is desired or possible, depending upon the soul lessons one has chosen to experience. ALL boxes within Gaia's embrace are now open for exit. No strategies required. This has always been a world of choicepoints. Infinite, endless choicepoints. Whatever your choices have been, you are living out the soul lessons (learnings chosen) right now... in each and every moment. We all are. So, for example, a soul lesson that I have been wrestling with, quitting, leaving behind, avoiding, accepting, the whole dance - for several lifetimes is 'passing the baton'. In the Buddhist traditions, this is known as 'passing on wisdom'. A noble pursuit, yes? Sure, on that playing field. What if there are other playing fields? Of course there are... anyone can observe this. The somewhat more atavistic playing fields appear to be more prevalent on this world at this time. ;) What if the soul lesson is NOT how to play perfectly on a particular field, nor to teach the 'young ones' how to do that... but what if there is a soul lesson in simply choosing to exit and evolve elsewhere? Such is and has been 'my' lesson. I came into this life simply unable to play on the field of trauma-drama. Compassion? Yes. Buy-in? None. This has been mis-perceived and called heartless by many. I have experienced the loneliness, the false belief that "I have to endure this, because this is my dharma" (translate - I chose this and now I have to suffer through it). There is a Tibetan enlightenment practice wherein the initiate is shut into a cave with a certain amount of food and water, and perhaps candles, and left there... to meditate her/his way 'out' or die. There are examples of this transition process in every tradition since the box was engineered. The 'way out of the box' is enlightenment or death. So, in returning to the closed-system to 'help' or 'rescue' or 'enlighten', one makes unconscious agreements to abide by these parameters. As with any closed system the 'rules' can be bent and sometimes broken... therefore the enlightened anomaly. Is this the only way? How could that be possible in an infinite universe? What if there is no baton to be passed? No wisdom to pass on? No box, and no reason to find a way out? What if the vow to have this understanding, this inner knowing, and still return to the 'content-laden' box to share that wisdom is no longer a viable path or option? What if? As long as one soul chooses to learn through transcendence or transmutation of any set of circumstances, worlds with those parameters will exist. Such is the grace of the Divine. Question for the moment: What, more interesting, more fun choices might there be? Show me? Just a contemplation. Not that anyone would actually want off their current game board.... ~unending love Nalini http://www.delphicwave.com http://www.beheartspace.com

~ Oneness: the antidote to the conscious/unconscious split ~

The exercise of processing has traditionally been that of making the unconscious conscious. Of bringing the LARGER portion of the iceberg of awareness into full 'thaw' and allowing all parts to 'rise above' the alleged water line from beneath which, our lives are guided in the currents of living, by this frozen mountain of unconsciousness.

As we ride the shifting waves, the shifting times and tides, this image, this 'fixed position' in processing needs to be shifted as well. It is, in fact, shifting at at this very lucid, special moment between the moons. Within the desire to make the unconscious, conscious, lies a transparent and insidious hierarchical fixed position. Belief system: (taken as axiomatic in EVERY tradition) Conscious is better than unconscious. "Better than" is always hierarchy.... Can you hear your 'but-but bird bursting into voice?'. BUT consciousness is everything! True. Except, of course for that HUGE underwater mountain that is the piece of the little self actually navigating the currents... BUT I don't want that to be true! Most actual truth is truth whether we believe it, want to see it, or not. BUT if I embrace the unconscious driver programs, I will be stuck in that frozen underwater place for f'in ever! Ha! That's the one. That is just a belief system, a rule in the unconscious.

The Oneness is the ALL. So what is the unconscious obsession with making itself conscious, that is actually driving the aversion to unconsciousness in the conscious mind? It twists the tongue and the mind, but read this double bind, this deadly embrace, again. Sit with it. An unconsciously held obsession with consciousness (remember that the unconscious mind truly believes and knows it is a chalice for our light) is the driving root cause of all that magnetizes unconscious behavior to us, to show us what is still holding on, and simultaneously pushes away the aversion to 'unconsciousness, or unconscious behavior' that we feel justified in holding onto. For example, the feeling that we are 'surrounded by unconsciousness' on this world. Is that truth? Is it not a subtle form of very entrenched judgement? What do your belief systems say? What rules are in place that hold this fixed position intact? The primal split is not light/dark but conscious/unconscious and the scream we fear to feel is the ticket out of this split and into oneness. Feel the scream in the body. Remember that it takes only '90 seconds' of holding and allowing this to dissolve for it to truly clear.

Yes, we still have preferences ~ our love for consciousness, for awareness, for the vibration of the oneness that, in dualistic language, defies expression... our expressions must now shift as well. Enlightenment implies 'endarkenment' ~ conscious implies unconscious. The Oneness is the All. Antidotes anyone? Are you ready to let the 'last holdout of duality' leave you? 'WHAT THEN?', the ego says... Well... 'what then?'. Perhaps freedom, fulfillment and JOY. When the unconscious obssession with consciousness is cleared, and its counterbalance of a conscious (but perhaps denied) aversion to unconsciousness is cleared as well, the resulting awareness is Oneness.

Try it! Ask for the 'brass ring'! You may find that 'found' is a misnomer, after all. Unity is not what duality would make of it ~ a polarized experience in form. Unity simply IS. Your choices, intentions, allowing and receiving determine the currents available to you.

May this releasing and receiving be blessed within and without!

Namaste ~ and endless love Nalini

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~ the Heartspace IS the ONENESS ~ 'Divine Mum'

Exiting the Realm of Sacred Martyrdom

Love must be primary. And yet it is little known. Impersonal, transpersonal love permeates everything, sources the All, and yet...She is little know, seldom embraced, yet to be comprehended. Listen to the voice(s) that cry 'I know! I understand!' and allow compassion to flow. She is little known. Little understood... and that bandwidth of limitation is shifting.

The surrender into and through the paradigm of sacrificing the 'little' or 'lower' self seems to have been the way... it is neither the Truth nor the Light. Yet is seems to have been a necessary practicum of acquiring discipline in this, the long 'instant' of humanity's ascension. Love is neither sacrifice nor atonement nor self-abusiveness, nor does it require 'sacrifice' in any form. Love does not perceive along these pathways. She perceives only the Oneness, only from wholeness, only As That. It is a perspective that terrifies the singularity, the egoically positioned 'personal' form. And for this transcendence of 'personal terror' the disciplines were formed. A way, a path(s), a light shining at the end of long travail that all too often previews the 'oncoming train wreck'. This has been held in nobility, as goal, as a 'highest' form of service. Only in a delusional paradigm of greed and suffering. Only in separation. Only from a 'place' that does not truly exist. And yet, humanity has 'acted as if'. The doorways loom large before it, and yet... 'we must suffer more nobly, we must sacrifice more purely'... only that which is the prime creator of suffering itself. Only that must be sacrificed. Only that false structure of controlled limitation must go.

For LOVE hold even this, this delusional, parasitic existence where one feeds off another with no recognition of inner Source, even this, She holds in compassionate embrace. Not hosting this feeding, frenzied, fear-driven prison of limitation, yet holding its essence in higher vibratory alignment ~ just enough. Just enough. Just enough to allow the infinite ocean of all possibility to shine through, in whatever way or form or for however slight a moment She will be allowed and received within.

This Love awaits you. This Love IS your very essential vibration of 'home'.

Let go the 'knowing' and the 'known', the imagined, the dreamed, the attempts to comprehend. The 'way' has shifted. The Truth and the Light remain the same.

Blessings, endless blessings, from the forever fields of undying love,
Nalini

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~ Equinox Portal ~

Cosmic alignments are opportunities for us to observe how the universe is re-aligning and how we are being re-calibrated within Her embrace. If we make 'too much' of a portal, project too much onto it, we will miss it entirely. If we ignore these opportunities, more are on the way and quickly! That said, it is helpful to take a moment, (the exact alignment is at 10:14 PM Pacific time - & remember that the US just went to 'summer' time) and honor these alignments. View them from within their flow of Grace, from within our hearts and cores.

The image of the light flowing through a portal is an appropriate one. Gaia's light now moves into and through yet another transit gate in her ascension process. what does that mean? Flow with her and feel the shifts, feel her joy in transition.

In this year of physical transition, we will feel, perceive these changes rather than think or believe or mentally, intellectually, understand. So, how is this transition manifesting through you? How is your Divine spark lighting up in reverent joy at this turning? There is no 'turning back' from this. And for that, we can be eternally grateful.

Have a blessed, blessed Equinox. And if this is your 'new year', may it be and may you make it be a blessed event! (aide shomah mobarak)

~unending love
Nalini

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Shadow Teachers

I remember now, the nanosecond split decision to enter into the conception imprint of the body I currently infuse Source's essence into. The embryonic embodiment's input into the choice to further the survival of the body by accommodating what could be called 'parental intent' or agenda. A split choice, indeed, as the pure intent, the trajectory of the essence was for a dimensional reality of pure light, sound, beauty and co-creation. And yes, that could and can be co-created in the now and here of our incarnate reality constructs.

Childhood was spent in a mental state of perplexion. The feeling of 'THIS is not what was intended! Or was it? What happened?'. Where are all of the abilities this essence is so familiar with? Why do these abilities not seem to function here?

A slight detour. Ever so slight, yet all-permeating. As I sat with this, listening, as the body has been clearing mightily of late, I heard, one more time, the words of one of this lifetime's teachers "one dimension too many". Admittedly, the reactivity was that of 'oh, not again'...with many lifetimes' disciplined energy of 'yes, show me, what is it that wants to be seen?'. I was shown a scene from one of the Harry Potter films. I forget which. Harry is using floo powder to travel magically and mispronounces his intended destination. [in the film, his intended destination is Diagon Alley and he says 'diagonally'] He ends up 'one grate' too far. The intended destination was full of sweet shops, 'good' wizards, his soul friends... and the 'one grate too far' full of twisted magicks, darkness, fear and treachery. The often 'hidden' world of the shadow teachers. "One dimension too many". 'Oh, you're joking me!' I exclaimed in meditation, the laughter bursting through my inner core. The physical instinct for survival in the developing reptilian brain (brainstem) of this body was allowed to divert pure intention by one little space-time pixel and what was chosen was the realm of the Shadow Teachers...

And, of course, there are no accidental choices. In 'hibernation' these past weeks, I finally heard that small voice, another that pretends to be the voice of Essence glibly stating 'oh, i shall just sacrifice myself one last time... for the hell of it. Why not?'. The hell of it indeed. For that has been the experience...the polarisation of heaven and hell, in incarnate form. A chosen experience, Now fully owned, integrated and released. Yes, the intention was there to incarnate into a certain family, bloodline coding(s), society, opportunities, etc. Yes, the original intention was for an embodiment of pure creativity, embodiment of true creative power. And yes, the slightest little wobble in choosing was present, still, for the first blueprint in this, a double blueprint lifetime (for everyone). 'why not clean up whatever CAN be cleaned up?' Oh how very noble... from a spiritually arrogant point of view. Why not clean THAT up, if nothing else? (eeks)

Years, actually decades ago, I had a dream where I was in some sort of oubliette in 'hell' with a few of my friend Leslie Temple-Thurston's students. I was assisting them to break out of this illusion, this place of forgetting. Leslie walked through an open portal into this little closed-loop dimension, and spoke to me, ignoring the others completely. She said 'I don't want you doing that HERE'. The 'i' of the dream immediately began to protest:' i am not doing harm! I am trying to assist! I am only bringing light to the shadow!'. The dream Leslie looked at me as though I had gone completely mad and took my left hand in hers. She gently but firmly walked me through the open portal I had been resolutely trying to show to these 'others' and through a few more - 5 in fact - to a much lighter, love-filled area. She then faced me, repeating 'I don't want you doing that THERE'. Literally. Not in that place. I woke up still feeling the pressure of her hand holding mine. I have remembered that, for these decades of practice. 'Not THERE'. That is a shadow world, a compartment of the illusion that is not suited to your presence.

Why do you stay in prison when the door is so wide open? ~Rumi

Communication, as it flows through me needs to come from another place. The true 'I' of me is not a shadow teacher, but something else, something now emerging that has yet to take form or flight. Something whose initial intentional trajectory is being honoured through me, ready or not.

I drew a Rumi card at New Year's 2011, 'The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,and invite them in. Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent as a guide from beyond.'

The body's reaction then, after 3 years of 'shedding' and 'crunching' experiences was 'no more... no more...' and yet there has manifested more upon more upon more until this last, 'final' (and the long-programmed doubt is certainly present & being processed) sucker punch that pulverizes the scar tissue into rubble, exposing wounds long cauterized out of even unconscious vibration. The sledge hammer version of truth, that only shadow teachers ever wield. A parcel of 'small gifts' - oddly belittled versions of giving - offered with gratitude, with love and with the sledgehammer of projection firmly attached. 'Here is what i have to teach you! Here is what YOU need to heal!'... and of course, this was not fully conscious on the part of the bestower... it did its work, nonetheless... and in receiving the love, the sledgehammer was vanquished at long last.

In the dimension I currently occupy, this aspect of teaching no longer exists. The vestiges of its departure were acutely painful to the physical and emotional bodies. The crushing of ancient, cauterized pain can only be met now, from this place, with gratitude. Thank you that that reality no longer exists within 'me'. Thank you that this shattering of the realm of the Shadow Teachers has left me at long last ~ free. Free to choose the co-creative space of my Divine Alignment. Free to simply 'Be'.

For all of the Shadow Teachers of long acquaintance, you are loved. You are respected. Your gifts have proven priceless. Of inestimable value. And yes, I was and have been, 'another you'. Thank you for your long love and acquaintance. It is time to say 'goodbye', to return to the Oneness from which 'I' have come, to be 'of you'.

It is never about another... it is always a way to be free... even the niggliest wobbly into 'one dimension too many' ~ a gift of transcendence into wholeness... though I might now recommend the 'front door' having done the other side. ;)

Walking with Gaia

Last night, in the middle of a long, sleepless, meditative stretch of hours, Gaia made her presence known. We chat together, Gaia and I, most days, many nights. This was different. An invitation.

From within the orb of Gaian embodiment, an offer emerged... non-verbal in its essence, a current from the heart. "Your circle is welcome. Join within." In 2009, after listening repeatedly to a channeling by my friend Leslie Temple-Thurston, from Gaia herself, stating what has finally emerged as the obvious 'it is time... I am evolving... you must evolve within me... your options are 'this'" (I am mis-quoting a bit here, apologies).

Since that deep listening, deep aligning, the singularity that I experience as 'I' has deepened her melt into our earth Mother. Roshini and I rise each day and express our love to and within her many dimensions. Lessening now, these dimensional windows. And multiplying, in fractal beauty in ways only reflected in miniature within her light ~ in snowfall, the rainbow lights within sunrise on snow ~ the light on the water in all its myriad forms...

This morning, though, we walked AS GAIA... on her surface world, within her vast embrace, yet AS SHE. The peace and wonderment of this, not a first experience, but a completion of some as yet un-cognized kind, leaves me breathless still. Gratitude for breath itself, for ths sylphs who clear and purify our harried atmospheric orb, for flow, the undines that ceaselessly sing and provide life-force to this, our blue, beloved earth... the green world in all her resplendent glory, the gnomes, elementals of embodiment, whose crystalline creations now rival the stars. For salamanders, large and small, as they spark the light, warm the hearth and provide a catalyst for this, Gaia's emergence into yet a new form.

As we walked, and Roshini pounced, and rolled and leapt for joy, the green world gave of its abundant splendor, the salamanders promising warmth from collected 'twigs', the waters beginning to gurgle once more beneath our icy bridge of mindfullness, we joined with Gaia in her murmur of awakening... the quiet, still hum of new beginnings.

What a wonder, is this, 'our' world.
May Every Blessing Find you,
Happy Sivaratri!
~unending love,
Nalini

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New Cycle Shifting

As we move into the new year, new cycle, new paradigm or whatever you may choose to call it - we are now NEW... and this is presenting interesting challenges to our physical and emotional bodies. The concept of 'NEW' to these bodies is triggering infant response patterns that make little or no sense to the mind, the intellect, and, in some instances, even to our hearts.

We can have physical, emotional reactions to people, places, things, situations, events, that on the surface appear to be nonsensical. We are either flung into reactivity or into the self-judgement backwash of 'what the bleep is going on? these are ridiculous feelings to have! why is this so painful?'.

What helps is to notice repetitive patterns in the physical body, sometimes in the form of repetitive symptoms,that mirror the adult body's triggering into an infant reaction of 'not safe' - 'can't trust' - or something like that. The physical body is being triggered into infant reactivity. NEW - as in a totally new cycle or paradigm - translates to some of our body programming as "I'm an infant again in a foreign world where I don't know how to function, I am totally dependant and terrified". Again, this is a physical body pattern and not real nor applicable in the NOW. It does not feel that way to the physical body, however. These patterns within it feel their survival is threatened.

The energies continue to intensify. The waves become larger. The bodies (physical and emotional) feel tossed into a new world with no umbilical, or with energetic umbilical attachments that no longer feel safe. And that is correct. Any attachment to the 'old' cycle will not serve, unless it, too, has altered and shifted to the NEW.

So how do we help our physical and emotional bodies? How does one help a terrified infant? We look honestly, we present the truth, we choose to trust, and we comfort those aspects of self that feel as though they are being annihilated. No aspect of self will be 'left behind' in this transformation. Therein lies much of its intensity. In other lives we may have allowed these physical and emotional patterns to simply 'go home' or may have dropped the body entirely. Not this time. Not this transition. That choice is always available, but it is not optimal during this transformational shifting.

If and when the feelings of terror, pain, panic, symptoms etc. surface, remember to breathe and let go. It is the last thing the infant patterns will want to do and they are, for the most part, non-verbal. So trying to 'talk them down' will be completely useless. Feel into the symptoms or emotions and bring the heartspace energies in. Bring soothing vibrations into the reactivity. And ask for help from the Divine.

Thank You, Divine Mother, for releasing, comforting and shifting these vibrations that are 'lost' in transformation. Show me what I may need to understand and let all the rest be held and transformed in your loving embrace.

May the Blessings of this transition carry you home!
(ALL the way home! ALL THE WAY!!!)

~unending love
Nalini

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~Opening to Receive~

~What or Who is Shining? ~
Today's full moon in Cancer, with the Sun aligned in Capricorn highlights our 'real work'. Or, perhaps better put, our originally intended receiving of Divine Essence through and into our lifestream. As an original point of light, we each entered a lightstream that became lifestreams. Why? To express the Infinite Oneness in some unique way. Because it was going to be FUN ~ a new playing field ~ a chance to honor Divinity by showing up in form AS THAT. A new game, a new field, a unique expression of Divine Love.

So how's that going for you? Like most, have you forgotten that original intention? Have you lost yourself in self-created karmas? In the ensueing drama of a world whose 'human' lifestreams have largely been 'lost' for what we would call 'awhile now'?

This moon cycle is a re-membering. A relaxing into receiving. Releasing any fears of WHAT you will receive ~ any beliefs that in this place any receiving is most likely toxic, that you will receive that which you do NOT enjoy, nor wish for, that which is experienced as 'pain'. Let it go. Those manifestations are of the old cycle. Filtered and tainted with conditioned reaction. Let it go. Re-member what it is to trust completely. Hear the inner voice of egoic construct that shouts or whispers "not possible... not possible here". Thank that voice and let it go.

Re-member the Divinity that you WERE and still ARE... a singular point of light, or so it seemed, so you chose... re-member and feel the lifting suppression of the inner smile. Relax and let it go. Even this... even THAT. Allow original intention to flood you, Divine Love to hold you. Just for today. Just for NOW. Re-member. NOW is what is. Not the Old World.

Relax. Be held. Ask that all aspects of self that chose to 'act' or 'control' or 'fight' for/against anything at all relax into Divine Embrace. Just for today. Just for NOW. (Not the Old World ~ not anymore.. not ever again)

Receive the replenishment, the rejuvenation, the nourishment available. Just receive... and see what wonders come of the receiving.

May the Blessings of Transformation Carry you in Divine Embrace
~unending love
Nalini

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"YOU are the one you have been waiting for..." ~ Hopi Prophecy

~ Happy Solstice! ~

~ Holding the Field(s) ~

What does it mean to 'hold a field'? We have thought we knew, perhaps. We have learned 'how to hold space'... this is not that. This is not that. Consider the solstice alignment. We acknowledge the effects on our bodies, our lives, our fields, of the celestial alignments. Today's solstice (exact at 9:36 pm pacific time on the 21st, 'yesterday') is conjunct the Galactic Center and squared to Uranus, the embodiment of radical change. We acknowledge these embodiments, yet we hold ourselves as 'other', as 'different'. We attempt to be 'empty', to be a 'space' and to hold space for a concept, a cause, for 'others'. The time for this misperception is over.

When we 'hold space' we are an empty cup, the 'hollow reed' through which Spirit is invited to pour. Of course. Why then, is the concept of being Spirit-FILLED 100% of the time, so foreign? The cycle is shifting and we with it. If we 'hold space' it will be filled... most likely with what is attempting to escape the dying paradigms of the old cycle, and/or be transmuted through that lovely clear space. Ouch! Our physical and emotional bodies were not designed to transmute the shifting of a cycle. Karmas from one cycle (the old one) perhaps, but not this. Not this. Spirit must be and is the doer here.

To hold a field, is to collaborate as a full-filled Divine embodiment, as and how Spirit's agenda leads us. We become a facet of Her crystalline embodiment, a gem in the larger design of Her new choosing, a stone in the new temple(s) being built of Her love. If any one facet or gem or 'stone' is 'empty' it will be crushed by the incoming intensity. Filled with the debris of what releases... And yet there is resistance. I do not pretend to understand. Why resist being FILLED with the light, love and power of the Divine as She creates a new configuration for this universe? Why not be a co-creative particle in that wave? Why not, in plain language, 'go with her flow'?

To participate in holding the new field(s) is not an identity, not a 'job description' it is a privilege, an honour and quite a bit of fun! First, we feel the resonance with certain vibratory patterns. This may show up as groups, projects, downloads, or any form or formlessness at all. We begin to gravitate to and through that resonance. New patterns magnetize us and we them. We are drawn toward that which uplifts, nourishes and sustains our beingness as we draw towards us that which does the same.

And, as we co-create simply by resonance vibration, the patterns shift and change again... and again... and again... until we come to the 'place of no patterning' ~ where our vibratory signature frequency simply IS and is drawn toward that which it resonates with and with which it aligns naturally ~ on a moment to moment basis. NO attachment, no aversion, simply resonance in the moment, as the new cycle is configured in accordance with Divine Will. Now THAT is fun!

What is the 'price' of this liquid alignment? Your identity. Your personal boxes, labels, and fears. The cartilage or carapace with which you maintain the structures of mind and alignment and behaviour. The mind will not willingly surrender these ~ unless and until the resonance has become so powerful that the FUN, the JOY, the upliftment, can no longer be denied.

This is such an alignment. Our daystar (a being that burns with divine light) is present in our galactic field, squared to the planetary being of change. Identity 'squared' - not to make it stronger! Not to exponentiate the cage! To free all vestiges of limited alignment and allow fluidity to finally be received, not by a 'hollow reed' but AS our embodiment.

All we need intend is 'yes' and let go. She who is the foundation of ALL has already foreseen your JOY, your ONENESS... for you ARE THAT ~ a resonant part of Her grand design.

Happy Solstice!
~with infinite JOY and aligned embodiment!
Nalini

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Poised in the Pause ~ 12/12 ~

Many of us have travelled the 'cracks between the worlds'. This is such a time. Rarely have we had such guidance. The full moon/eclipse energies, as the bookend for a window of opportunity, are gently closing a vast cosmic door on the 'past'. Can you feel the heaviness of the opened aperture sliding slowly into place, sealed. Closed behind us. The only openings the gateways (and there are many, varied and amazing) that move us ever onward into evolution. Where have your choices led you? What new openings now present themselves as gifts of Gaian transition? What openings have your choices now unveiled before you? It is an unending stream of stellar ignition. To THIS have your prayers and affirmations and commandments brought you. What/which will the turbo-blast now ignite or inflame?

The old world burns within us ~ sometimes as a joyous new burst of lightness and flow, sometimes as what feels like the unending quicksand of old habituations. Do not judge what you appear to experience - not yet. Not yet. The solstice gateway looms before us - inviting us into its perhaps devouring, perhaps luscious maw of grace. Whatever is left of the old world, let it burn. Enter the core of inner silence and let the birthing fire consume all that does not align with cosmic movement.

Today marks a stillpoint. A breathing point. Not a vantage point, to survey what was, and what may come, but a pause in the Great Transition, within which we can breathe and be grateful for all that may yet be.

Thank you that this transition is guided entirely by Grace.
Thank you for this moment of perfect breath, perfect silence, as the waves loom behind and before.
Thank you that the waves enfold and caress us as they pound even now upon some far, new shore.
Thank you for all that may yet be.
I choose gratitude. I choose grace. I choose the finest, most minute filaments to be lit as beacons within me, that Divine Alignment may never be ignored in any form.
Thank You, for the choicepoint windows of alignment that are ever in Presence, are ever present, in this moment and in every moment as new worlds dream to be.
~Namaste~

with unending divine direction ~
Nalini

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~Let's Talk Towers ~

The Tower card and the Moon card are images (here from the Rider-Waite) from the Tarot that teach the meaning of portals, of moving through challenges, of letting go into flow. They also have reference to many ancient / esoteric traditions... the moon pillars to Boaz and Joaquim, the pillars of duality (loosely translated, to be sure). The pillars of duality must be transcended at EVERY level for true unity to occur. This is generally a multi-lifetime process.

In our current lifetime, we have the opportunity to move thru an infinite series of such portals from within a flow of grace. This is, quite honestly, why most 'conscious' souls incarnated into this particular lifestream at this time.

An image of the 'tower' that persists in shadow form is beautifully illustrated by story in the Ramayana, of Rama/Sita/Ravanna. In the story, Rama and Sita are incarnations of Vishnu and Lakshmi, archetypes of sustainable divine manifestation and abundance, respectively. Ravanna is the 'demon' archetype who steals Sita (the archetype of abundant flow) and imprisons her in 'his' tower.

This is story of dharmic alignment... of the old cycle truth of following one's dharmic path through a particular incarnation with integrity. In the vedic traditions, as in many others, dharma is like one's role in a play or position on a team. For the play to go well or for the team to win, each person must "stay in character" or "play his position." If each thing in the universe does its dharma, the universe functions smoothly. When people or things violate their dharma, things fall apart.

With the current cyclic shift, all roles, all positions are also shifting. This brings up shadow aspects of our previous dharmic roles, rules, and responsibilities that would never have come to light (literally) without this shift.

So, the tower image, for example. The fear, in collective consciousness, can be that, although the tower in which Sita is imprisoned by Ravanna is a structure or vibration of lower energy, she holds her integrity, and waits for Rama, (the archetype of the Divine Warrior of Integrity) to follow that attraction path and rescue her.

There is a place in our modern psyche that regards this tower, in whatever form, as a protection. So, the dualistic archetypes of Rama/Ravanna are two sides of the same Lila, or cosmic dance. Sita holds her alignment in the certain knowledge that it will attract the solution (Rama's rescue of her) and this is dharmic indeed. HOWEVER, there is a shadow in the modern collective where the tower also becomes a place to 'hide'.

The Tower, when subjugated into this equation, becomes the duslistically held structure of both a prison and a protection and NOT the symbol of strength, courage, and dharmic integrity that it was originally intended to be.

The voice of this shadow could be said to say "I am letting the Ravanna archetype imprison and thereby control my energies, so that the Rama archetype (the other side of the coin) can 'rescue' or 'save' me... BUT... there is terror, heartbreak and resistance to being 'outed' as it were, because that would require full diligence in dharmic aligment." In other words, "i" (little 'i' used consciously) would have to be a mature, spiritually integrous tower in and of mySelf. Ever faced this? We tend to have this program very covertly stashed away, in a place we refuse to venture into.

This MUST be cleared from our programmed unconscious for all of the archetypes to move into new dharmic alignment, playing the new roles they came in to play for this Shift, full-filling Divine Play, Divine Agenda, in this unprecedented lifetime.

In other words, we have to allow the archetypes of Ravanna/Rama to release their shadow aspects (that have occurred over our souls' histories and were not originally intended) within us so that we can resume the Divine Play in a more evolved and truly authentic dharmic alignment... so that these archetypes can do the same within us.

So, how is the 'tower' playing out for you? Where have you unconsciously chosen to 'hide' or 'be safe' even while you are courageously standing for truth? These are the archetypal shadows playing out in today's world. As we release them from within ourselves, they cease to play in our lives, in the vibrations we radiate, and in the world as well.

Play well!
And May Every Blessing Find you!
~unending love
Mary (Nalini)
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~ Ferocity of the Heart ~

Sometimes, like Mrs. Brisby in the Secret of Nimh, courage of the heart is tested mightily. In the film, Mrs. "B" is told "Courage of the heart is very rare"...and so it has seemed to be in this cycle that is now completing. What does that mean? What is Fierce Compassion? How does it reconcile with harmlessness, with healing, with the sincere desire of the heart to 'heal', to love and/or bring about the healed reality? One of the 'secrets' hidden in duality is just this. There is no 'either-or'.

In unity, exists all things, all vibrations, all responses. What is appropriate to the moment is what MUST be expressed, be accomplished, be revealed and embodied.

For years I studied the warrior arts, acquired accomplishment in wielding weapons of 'self-defense', rather than offense, of protection and service, rather than invasion, annihilation and cruelty. Then, I studied the Heart. The "Way of the Warrior" IS a path of coming home to the heart. Not the only one, by any means, but certainly 'one' "way". One road 'home'.

The secret lies within the heart herself. There is no 'either/or'. There is no duality. Only the inner core essence, the Spirit within can guide the dance of unity. What is a 'weapon' in the hands of one being, is a healing tool for another. Only the heart can truly discern.

To cast away warrior skills 'in service to the heart' is a false casting. It is half of an open-ended equation whose learning curve is currently steep on a good day. A fully opened heart is NOT a vibration of unconditional access without boundaries, nor can it be so within the transition, the shift, the 'beginning that is nigh'. The skills needed for the transition encompass the all, inclusive of what have been called 'psychic warrior' training.

What is the reconciliation of the sword, the shield, and the place where these do not exist? It is Ferocity of Heart. Sometimes known as 'fierce compassion' this invincible flow of love is neither aggressive nor has it cruelty within its vibrational component. It is not a force 'against' nor is it 'for' ~ both of which are fixed positions implying a split in duality. It is the inner knowing that holds sanctity of spirit in its appropriate space of reverential light. It is the honoring of, perhaps forming of ~ for the first time ~ healthy energetic boundaries on which can be hung appropriate shields.

It is said that "when the light of ten thousand suns enters the body, the inner radiance becomes its own protection... those able to revere and honor this light will see and understand; those unable will be blinded by its radiance..." ~ sufi, anon

And, as a part of this learning, this process, this embodiment, walls come down, and boundaries replace them. This is the reality of Mastery, the embodiment of light, of truth, of wisdom, in the face of whatever comes. Held in love, in and from the heart, with no vibration of conflict, competition or judgement. Fearless and 'armed' with an appropriate 'no' should dissonant energies arise.

This, we are learning to hold, the synergy of solar and lunar lightstreams, the merging within of healed and protected, the embodiment of divine sovereignty.

Within the transit, as the veils thin toward samhain, and the mayan calendar breathes its last within an ending/beginning cycle, our discernment and boundary skills are not only needed but non-negotiable. Allow the resurrection of the "peaceful way" that transcends the need to fight, fly or freeze and simply flows ~ holding within it the appropriate application of whatever tool may be necessary for Love to be Sovereign, inclusive of boundaries, shields and 'swords'. In the samurai tradition, 'sword' is synonymous with 'spirit'. Would we cast it then away? Or perhaps allow Spirit to be wielded through us, in whatever way is deemed appropriate in the moment, by the Divine within.

May we re-member ferocity of heart & all of her skills and boundaries ~
Namaste

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~ Happy Navaratri ~

Welcome to the 'nine nights' of the Goddess! In the vedic traditions, today's new moon also heralds Navaratri, the festival of the Creatrix, honoring the Goddess energies in 3 of her traditional forms ~ these three forms are Durga, the Invincible Force, slayer of negativity, Lakshmi, wielder of all that is abundance, beauty and good fortune, and Sarasvati, holder of wisdom, music, creativity... each aspect of the Goddess energies receiving honor for 3 nights. Today begins the cycle with Durga, the Invincible Force of love ~ that nothing can withstand. This sweeping wave of Truth clears all else from its path, and thus, if it is invoked, from ours.

How many of us, faced with the above roadsign, would do whatever it took to shift lanes, take that exit, put ourselves on the path of Truth, no matter where it might lead? I will always take that road. I have made that choice so many times, in so many forms, and for so many lifetimes now that it no longer feels like a choice, but the 'only option'. Truth is a funny thing. It is subjective until it is not. And that, as they say, is a very long journey ~ or a short one, I suppose, depending on one's point of view.

So on this new moon morning, a new moon in Libra, the first day of the Goddess' celebrations, focused on our inner relating, I asked again. If this roadsign loomed before me, as truly it does in every moment, are there any aspects of self that would swerve in the other direction? Put on the brakes? Blow a tire? Allow the engine to break down? The metaphor is usually felt in the body. Our physical 'vehicle' for navigating life. Are there patterns left in the physical or emotional body, still, that might choose a delay at the very least, because "truth hurts" or "truth will make you mad" or "truth....(fill in the blank)"...Are there patterns that would choose a breakdown at the mere appearance of this choice? And if so, may I find the compassion within my being to provide an alternate flow of information so that Truth may find its place?

Happily, this morning, there were none of these voices in evidence in the body, as it is happily recalibrating in a very new energy. Celebrating with the Goddess archetypes a new way of being ~ in health, in safety, in unabashed, unhidden, relationship AS ONE. "Human" in appearance only, pretending no more. Moments such as this are precious to me. I am grateful. Grateful for the trees we walked through at sunrise, for the creature beings we saw and felt along the way, for Surya, the sunrise itself, for the surface world, such a miracle in this universe, and for Divinity in the body, at what seems like long last.

May we all consider deeply and well the choice for Truth, what it may hold at any moment, and the gifts along the way!

Happy Navaratri! (and new moon!)
~unending love
Nalini (Mary)
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~September 'Sussing'~

Sometimes We All Need Sorting

Sometimes we all need 'sorting'. This month, September 2011, is about withdrawing inward and BEING that. I was reminded, this morning, of the Sorting Hat from the Harry Potter books by JK Rowling. In the books (and films) the hat 'sorts' each new student into a community or 'house' by the qualities it reads in the 11-year-old energy field. I have recently been observing how my inner 11-year-old might still be influencing the 'sorting of myself', a Self which no longer identifies with anything fixed, especially the 'tween self whose body imprinted life in a way that furthered its (the body's) survival.

I now have a 'new' processing technique that seems to help. Our bodies may be ready and able to let these deeply imprinted programs release, but they hold on, unwilling to let go, for survival and safety reasons. This pattern (usually energy at this point, that becomes mirrored in our environment(s) now because it is time to let them go) holds on because it was imprinted, taken in, with the belief that 'this keeps the body safe'. From the family of origin circumstances, usually. As I looked at this pattern, putting the sorting hat figuratively on my own '11 year old' head, and saying "Ok now, where is the sorting taking you?" I felt the body vote for its own safety. A survival program. These programs never want to let go, because they are programmed to function as a safety mechanism for an old circumstance. The downside, in this shifting time, is that they now, because all things are changing, draw in that very same pattern because drawing in the pattern or behaviour from someone else, and triggering into defending against it, makes the body feel 'safe'. Illogical, but there it is. Imprinting rarely makes 'sense'.

How to release these? The sorting hat helps immensely. I was sitting in meditation, asking the body if it really wanted the 'hat' - whose energetic presence on my head is still making me giggle - to use THIS PATTERN as a means of sorting things out... me, specifically. The body emphatically thought NOT.

So there is a place to begin. Let the body understand that a new sorting is taking place, almost constantly, and the old, 'safe' places are no longer so. Allowing the body to tell me what it would rather the 'hat' use as sorting criteria gave it, the body, a reason to open to willingness to allow a new energy to move in and begin to 'sort out' or 'suss' as some of us say, an openness to the new ways that will shift and morph and change and move the body through the transitions that awareness has committed to taking.

On this 5th day of September, whose energies are those of allowing, I can highly recommend 'talking to the hat'... tongue firmly in cheek here, with a large grin on my face, giggles bubbling up, and Fawkes, the phoenix of resurrection circling my 'office'.

May you allow this portal through the full moon (9/12) to sort you in new and delightful ways! And may Fawkes be present to guide your resurrections!

~unending love
Nalini (Mary)
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May Every Blessing be Allowed within your newly morphing field!!
xoxo

New Moon and Co-Creating

~Finances, Fear & Failure?~

With this past weekend and the astrological squeeze into the Virgo new moon last night (8:04P PDT) the collective was squeezed into (and not through yet) its 'worst fear' scenarios around fiscal support. Yes, we are talking about money. Where will it come from? There is never enough... how can I afford???

There is a core trauma leftover in the collective at the cellular level, leftover from the post-WWII generation(s). It is no one's fault. Those who went to war or whose siblings did, were imprinted with lack, poverty consciousness and fear of failure. "Honor" and dignity went with being 'solvent' even if solvency came at the price of 'losing everything'. Sounds like a contradiction? It is! A paradox of the heart: It is noble to sacrifice my material well-being for spirit, for others... and... if I do that I will be perceived as worthless and a failure, insolvent... in one way or another. This paradox, or double bind, this financial/spiritual deadly embrace is being pushed to its limits - the polarity stretched to the breaking point - by the current astrology and Gaia's ascension process. In other words, it is 'up' for everyone... even those who feel they have processed 'money' and have no more issues.

What needs to be released fully and freely into the arms of the divine is all limitation, all duality in love/money where fear can find a way to control the flow.

If your mind is boggling a bit, good! It is the mind and its domination of the body that are running this show. We must allow our cellular genetics to release the enmeshment of spirituality, honor and integrity with poverty, lack and/or failure and pretention of any kind.

Divine Mother does not judge based on status, merit, nor even on our quality of heart. She IS infinite heart quality. And so, as we let ourselves be held in Her embrace, embodying AllThatIs, we become the unity field within which all things are aspects of love... including money... down to our cellular 'fingertips'.

Allow the cellular trauma to begin to understand that it is not truth. It is the child of fear, and the Great Mother can only LOVE... even the fear.

We are held. We are ONE. We are not alone and broken. We are held within the support (FINANCIAL AS WELL) of divinity.

I choose to trust this. I choose love... AS financial support, not in dualistic polarity with it... why not be an embodiment of financial abundance? What a wonderful way to be of service?
(giving as a 'given')
;)

~unending love
Nalini (Mary)
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May Every Blessing Find You! Especially That of Unity!

Flowing with the River

I spent yesterday morning on the river. A rafting trip, 'guided' by a friend and spiritual sister. Four women, flowing with life. I asked one of my friends what her favorite part of the experience was and she replied " I liked the parameters, the finite components of it. There is a 'put in' location, a 'take out' location, and a guide who knows the river, knows where all the rocks are, and does most of the work ~ and I got to be totally in the moment, responding to the water - the flow". It struck me so deeply the metaphor for life - for incarnation.

In each incarnation, each lifetime, there is a 'put in' location, a 'take out' location, Spirit knows the currents, the rocks, the challenges, when to tell us to 'paddle!', to 'dig deep', and when to just go with the flow. We need only respond in the moment.

When we pushed the raft into the river, it took about 20 seconds for one of the other women to grin at me and say "happy". I concur. I step onto / into the water and everything I AM says "happy". There is only the flow. There is only immersion in nature's oneness. And that, my friends, is how I choose to dream my reality. This is how I choose to live. This is life. Immersion in flow ~ immersion in oneness. Spirit is always guiding; She knows the currents, She knows where the rocks are, and She cherishes our journey, every one. We are Her embodiments, if we allow ourselves to BE.

Water is a blessing. As are the currents of our lives.

May you find your current(s) and allow it(them) to carry you!
We are all, so very blessed.
Mary (Nalini)
~with unending love

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8:8 Lion's Gate!

Transiting the Lion's Gate

Today is 8:8. Yesterday was the exact cross-quarter for Lughnasad, the 6th spoke on the wheel of the 'year'. This is the spoke of disseminating light ~ of being full-filled with Grace and allowing it to flow from us. The Lion's Gate is, traditionally, the alignment of Sirius and our Sun (Ra). The temples along the Nile still align with Sirius, even though centuries of precession have passed since they were built and originally aligned. The star Sirius (which is a dual system, A & B) is said to be the embodiment of Isis, an embodiment of the mysteries, of magic, of the miraculous, and of the Great Mother of us all.

Our earth, beloved Gaia holds this embodiment as well... quarantined and monitored though she has been, she is now moving through her ascension into that of 'stardom'... it is Her time to Shine!

Aligning in and with the Lion's Gate is aligning oneself with the stellar downloads currently, hmmm, a litte intense?? ;o)

A way to hold these flows of Grace with integrity, ease, and a bit more comfort, is to let them pass through you. Release any fears of abandonment, of being 'left behind' or of 'not getting it'. Gaia absorbs all. Align with our Earth Mother, embrace her with the totality of all that you are... remember and reverence her divinity. And flow with the currents!

May every download find you!
THIS is the ride of lifetimes! May you be held in the depths of the embrace!

~unending love
Nalini
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Stellar Light Ignited!

Welcome to your download(s) from Home!
As of yesterday, the stellar downloads are amping in a trajectory that makes Space Mountain look like kid stuff... wait a minute... space mountain IS 'kid stuff' LOL! The lightstreams are ignited and flowing in torrential downpour. They began yesterday, 8/1 and will continue with ever-increasing speed and intensity through 7 August, the actual cross quarter of Lughnasadh, the celebration of the great solar deity... AND the stellar light of your home vibration.

A transmission came through on 1 June of this year, that the 'gag order is lifted' and the quarantine is breaking down. The starstreams are flooding in once more, ready to inform, to be integrated, and to illuminate our every atom.

This Friday, 5 August, Delphic Wave will host a stellar downpour window as an initiation portal into this amazing time! Join us if you feel called... if you know yourself as starseed and stand ready to receive your stellar codings! They cannot be avoided ~ we are being upgraded at lovespeed... and when we join together in circle, we integrate instantaneously.

These next months will be intense, and with the help of our home world emissions, we will navigate them with ease and grace, from the HeartSpace, with our spirits finally able to soar!

May Every Blessing of this Time, Find You!
~unending love
Nalini (Mary)

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~~ And if you cannot or do not feel called to join us, DANCE this Lughnasadh! It is time to know home!!!

New Moon, New Alignments

Fluidity in Creative Fire

This week, there was an 'extra' transmission in the "Friday" Divine Feminine Transmissions series: a 'fifth' download for the moon cycle that ends right now as I write this..at 12:42P mdt, the new moon alignment happening right about now.

I thought to send it along here as well, as the opportunity that awaits us at this time of transition and awakening is the alignment inward, deeply inward, with our creative fire elementals - our personal 'salamander' guides - and with the outer reflection of the inner light. Like my friends here above, flinging ourselves into the light in timing with the wave of Grace we now find ourselves held and emcompassed within.

~ Creative Fire ~
This week, being the 5th week in the lunar cycle we call 'July', there would not normally be a transmission. The Great Mother feels otherwise. Here it is. Gratitude to all who receive Her. ~Nalini

"My creative fire burns brightly. It illuminates even the deepest, darkest ocean depths within this world and within your essence. Where you persist in holding yourself separate from my transition, you will experience its transformative flames, purifying, transforming, mystifying you with its intensity. You are BEING mystified! It is my best humour at play. Your inner, mystical nature is what carries you ~ holds you ~ feeds and nurtures the core essence of all that you are.

The urge to move inward need not be a withholding of self from other(s). Drawing inward draws you closer to Me, into My Heart, into the heartspace where we co-exist as One. The essence MUST now draw itself in and upward. As your Earth Mother reforms herself in this way, a conscious choicepoint lies within and before you. Flow with the currents of Gaian evolution or perish in the attempt to remain separate 'ahead' or 'behind'. A world is evolving, ascending, and few have chosen themselves to accompany Her transcendent flight. All you need choose is 'yes' and Divinity will provide the answers. One moment in time, at a time. There will be no linear path forward in this choosing, but a oneness within the dance. Dance well, dance mightily, dance as though the turning worlds ARE watching! For, in Truth, the cosmos breathes with this journey, this moment, as a reflection of ALL That Is."< br />

~ as given thru 'Nalini' from the Great Mother 07/29/2011 ~ Happy New Moon!

Dust off your intentions and jump!!!

May Every Blessing Find you!
Nalini
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~ Full Moon Blessings ~

~ What is being illuminated? ~

Within each moon cycle, awaits the opportunity for receiving and releasing illuminations. The new moon / solar eclipse of 1 July, 2011, both ended and ushered in a cycle of illuminations ~ that which we call time. Funny thing, time. It is truly only a system of demarcation. A way to share calendars. In Divine Timing, there is only the All. At each new moon we broadcast our intentions into the omniverse, giving thanks for the receiving of signs, of all that we intend... hopefully including divine timing in the feedback loop! The larger the initiatory cycle, the more we can receive as illuminated, in completion, in newness and in form.

There is a reversal happening here and in the NOW. "I receive, I release". Inbreath... outbreath. The learned, conditioned behaviour of emptying out in order to be filled is changing. As we allow the illumined spaces of this full moon window to be received within us, they evaporate and release more that no longer serves.

May Every Blessing of this first Full Moon of the newly awakening Gaia not only find you, but enlighten your every motion.
~unending love on this 'full moon' day!
Nalini (Mary)
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